Have you ever experienced starting over after almost getting everything you wanted in life? Everything is just “almost,” yet you never actually get it. I started this blog because I have something inside me that needs to be released. Right now, my heart is full of guilt, sorrow, and sadness, yet I am still somewhat hopeful about what is to come.

I made this blog so I can write all the things I have wanted to express but never had the chance to share with the people who are important to me, because they are no longer here with me. There is this guilt in my heart. I should have expressed how important they were to me. Now I am writing this blog as a way to release all that energy so I can finally let go.

So why am I starting this blog again? Well, I had a moment in life where I almost had everything I wanted. I had the job I wanted, I got accepted into a prestigious university in Canada, the University of Toronto, I had my friends, and most importantly, I thought I had finally met the woman I wanted to marry.

Then a lot of mistakes happened. There were regrets, guilt, and things I should have done. That was when I realized I had lost everything that once made me who I am.

Now I am starting again from scratch. I am still studying at UofT, and I still have a job I like, but the people who are important to me are no longer with me.

Now, with all this unexpressed love, I am going to write it here so I can finally be free and let go, so I can begin again.